TITLE: I Have To
AUTHOR: Marlen
EMAIL:  crmv@aol.com
RATING: G
SPOILERS: post-ep Requiem 
CLASSIFICATION: Vignette
KEYWORDS: MSR, Scully POV
SUMMARY: Can Scully keep it together after 
the events in Requiem?
DISCLAIMER: Repeat after me. They don't 
belong to me; they belong to CC & Co.
ARCHIVE: Anywhere as long as you let me know 
where it's gone.
FEEDBACK: Yes, with sugar on top?!?!  


I Have To
By Marlen

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I don't want to sleep anymore.

But I will.

I don't want to eat anything.

But I do.

I don't want to talk to anyone.

But I have.

The phone doesn't interrupt my reluctant 
slumber anymore.

But I wish it would.

I want to drown myself in an alcoholic haze 
and forget.

But I can't. 

I want to shatter into a million pieces.

But I don't.

I want to cry until there are no more tears 
left to shed.

But I won't.

***

So I sleep, I eat, and I talk.

I won't shatter.

I won't cry.

I need to stay strong.

I have to.

For you.



Authors Notes: This could be directed towards 
either Mulder or the baby Scully is carrying 
at the end of season 7.  

This is my first attempt into the world of 
fanfic.  I know it's not much, but it just 
jumped into my brain and wouldn't leave until 
I wrote it. What do you think?